This is going to be a honest reply to this questionnaire. No make-up and no smart, flashy answers.
LASA: "Do you remember the happiest moment of your Postdoc life?"
Remembering how cool it was to make things work together with other people and experiencing that joy again.
LASA: "Do you remember the time you felt most afraid? If so, what was your thought process at the time?"
I’ve been having a hard time feeling bad about not meeting my own expectations and at the same time having to commute every weekend to Munich. This was very hard. It was then very interesting to observe how my mind crushed all those expectations in a sort of survival reaction to reach the point where I couldn’t care less about all those (now meaningless) things.
LASA: “Is there anything you would like to do that you haven’t done yet?”
I would love to have 6 months, a sound studio room, a bunch of MIDI instruments, some friends visiting sometimes and myself. I’d love to listen to what’s sounding in that room after that. I’d like to get to know myself in the infinite space of music where no criteria nor rules prevail. Overwhelming!
LASA: “If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?”
If it’s concerning my own decisions, I’m not changing a thing. I accept myself as I am, for the good and the bad things.
LASA: “What will you miss the most from your time as a Postdoc in LASA?”
The people! Anything else is irrelevant.
About specific moments, I’ll miss the nice discussions with Felix and Klas.
I’d love to repeat boom,boom… lamp flashing…. boom,boom orange splashing …
LASA: “What advice can you give to new Postdocs?”
There is a continuous process in each person (or at least in myself) seeking for something different. If you want to do a Postdoc make sure you are not at all close to the point where
you already understood too well how things work/do not work in a research group and
where every research problem you could consider reminds you of another problem you already know.
LASA: "What do you feel most guilty about?"
I don’t feel guilt anymore.
“What’s surprised you most about being a Postdoc?”
That nothing surprised me. That was surprising!